Continued from the previous post.





I am well aware that much of the angst over the business of sending my youngest child off to preschool is 100% my fault and my doing. My dithering over the rightness or wrongness, the timing, the implications and consequences of sending my last baby off into the world, setting her tiny feet on a path that will lead her away from childhood, from innocence ... from me ... has rubbed off on all of us. Although Sam is now, at not quite five, sophisticated enough to assure both Cj and me that it is, after all, just preschool and that it's fun, neither my daughter nor myself have been quite ready to buy it. Nonetheless, we took the plunge ... sort of -- I figured I'd give it a week.

Last week was terrible. The drop-off sessions were every bit as awful as I knew they would be, with cries of "Mommy ... mommy ... " wailing behind the door I had just closed on my last baby. My house was too quiet, and my head was full self-condemning thoughts like:

Why in the world did you adopt these children if you were going just to ship them off to the hands of others?

Thankfully, it was a short week, and Saturday showed us that our sweet darling was just as sweet as before and apparently undamaged by her ordeal. Sunday was great, too, and although mention of the up-coming events of the week struck a sour chord, there was no melting down being done.

Monday morning was rocky. Tuesday morning brought only one little whimper. Wednesday, some restrained excitement.

This morning! This lovely Thursday! Well ... with an almost throbbing impatience, Cj was not one bit inclined to let me check my email in peace, drink my tea, or do anything else but go through her closet looking for the perfect outfit, consult over her twenty pairs of shoes, stow her snacks and goodies into her backpack, do her hair, brush her teeth and get her brother up and moving toward the door.

Yep. She was HAPPY TO BE GOING TO SCHOOL.

For more on my kids and school, click here, here, here, and here for a few of my rambles on the subject.


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